Return of the Princess.... muahaha

I let my blog Rot... yet again. *Sigh*

Unfortunately, I live my life by procrastinating, with a capital 'P'... explains it all, the inconsistency in blogging, the never done homework and assignments dated back to God knows when etc etc..

Anyway, trials is almost over, except for maths and EST., but do lets forget about unimportant things here *grins*

Things I've been up to lately... (important)
1. reading Popteen & various fashion magazines
2. Playing RPG games one after another after another
3. Anime & Mangassssss
4. Caught up with drama series
5. sleep
6. Shoppings..

So currently, all important things I've been able to accomplish...

Okay, on a serious note...
I did finish revising for my trials and I did pick up on my guitar and I did & still am picking up a foreign language..

*phew* I guess this make up for the time wasted on doing the 6 important things above *points points*

On a totally different note....
*back to some emo posts... or not*
*stretch fingers & take in a deep breath*

At times, when thing goes terribly wrong, the priority is no longer pointing fingers but fixing the problem... Yet, we tend to push responsibilities away and choose the easier route. To blame it on others for what you've become.. do we not know that what we become isn't ppl's doing but what we allow ourself to become by choosing to be affected by circumstances....

It's still better to appreciate flaws than to miss it when it's gone forever..

Wishing for an epilogue

...
I typed a whole 3 page worth of essay and save it in the draft....
*sigh*
I can't help it....
No, you won't get to see it...

But if you happen to be reading this....
Please pray fo me.

Today another inspiring and talented person has left us. Not long ago, the world mourn over the death of Micheal Jackson and Farah Fawcett. Today it's Yasmin Ahmad, who's best known for her multiracial theme movies and commercials. *sigh*

Isn't life full of the unexpected?

Why is it always after we have lost something so dear that we regret and earn for it? This part of human nature is really amusing, not in a good way thou. We tend to take things for granted and expect to be spoonfeed...

Some take things for granted and expect it to be the way it is. Never occuring to them that what is here today might be forever gone tomorrow.
And there are the other group who refuse to face the reality of losing what they have and therefore push any thoughts of this matter to the far corner of their brains, trying to make it vanish...

Maybe, just maybe facing the concequences and reality would be a better option. Maybe dealing with the heartache would fix it back together....

At the meantime, why not give someone a smile, or perhaps a hug?
*hugs*

ahh.... I do apologize for my inconsistent updating..

Anyway, today was suppose to be "the day" aka drama competition. So all of us came to school with the most random stuff you can find on earth ie. two headed dinosaur, coconut shells, spongebob, a starfruit-cum-digi suit, fork and spoon... =.=

To tell the truth, we don't really need a drama competition to enhance and unleash our creative side, cause we, our class itself is a drama on its own... throw in some conflicts, misunderstanding, bad attitude, illness, and drama.....tada, 5 alfa appears.

So, the drama practice was practically in a mess, coz nobody remembers their lines and no practices have been done. It's only on the competition day itself that we start panicking and practicing. So, a messy drama practice leads to disagreements which in turn lead to fights and yells then to the whole class being divided. You people really arh...

Then during Bio, Briggie the lovely child passed out.... told ya our existance is drama itself. So the ambulance was called, her parents came and off she went to the Hosp. Glad to see her posting messages on facebook, which could mean that she's feeling better. Me thinks.... Take care Hon...

ps: there's alot on my mind, probably write some interesting thoughts soon.. when i feel like it.

Today was fun, even though I woke up with a deep sharp pain at 3 am. oww...
So i decided to stay home and skip school, typical me.... but then again, school mates did nothing in school anyway... hah!

So, wen to lynn's house in the afternoon.... kononnya wanted to study, and we ended up playing dress up. *smacks head* but that was the plan since the beginning lar... Too bad the others couldn't join...

Let the pics do the talking...

Never ending Changes...

Nothing much to blog bout.... Am really really bored. And there's piles and piles of homework to be completed. However, being the procrastinator that I am, I think I am going straight to bed and skip homework yet again.

well, Do you still believe in getting free stuff out of the blue??
I never did, but yet again I am proven to be WRONG...
gah!! why why...

Day started with me skipping school *yet again* and waking up after noon.
Then I had a huge fight with my mom. I think she has an issue with me spending all my money on myself. Why! Why! It's my money!!! *jumps around protesting*
well, and today was coz I needed a haircut. BADLY!! a whole 3 months without a trim and i'll end up as cavewoman....

walking down the alley to my hairdresser.... and wala. They offered me a free hair cut. =.=''' Like seriously... neh neh neh, but then hor, I ended up using my-suppose-to-be-for-hair-$ on something else..... WHY!!!!

2nd chances is always what we need, yet this doesn't come by easy. Words said could never be taken back, deeds performed can never be undone, time would never tick in an anticlockwise direction....

Now that I'm not boiling up, I think this can be blogged in a more peaceful manner.

All in all I need an all-expense-paid-trip to somewhere deserted. And yes, I can continue to dream on as air tickets do not fall from the sky, neither do money grow on trees.

Much relationship have been strained, some to the extend of never mendable....
Words uttered can't be taken back, feelings can never be erased with ease. Yet, to me I prefer to just forget about it and move on. Then on the other hand, some I need to fix. Just not now. Period. I know you would never love me the way you did before, and we, as humans have continue to grow with time.... Maybe what it is now isn't really that bad. I wish we could go back to where we were a yew years ago, but you broke my heart while I dissapointed yours.

Isn't it weird yet fasinating that some things we know so well could appear to be foreign at the same time? Life's just full of suprises, and we're continuously opening a big wraped gift-box only to find another gift-box in it and yet another and another... It just goes on and on, yet we never get tired of opening all of it.

I'm just getting random thoughts right now,
No point dwelling on one subject for too long and I do have a sickness called short-attention spam, so.... ^^
Till something exciting happen, I'll just be ranting away about random stuff.

Fresh aroma could be smelled from afar......
It smells like.... something close to home,
close to the heart, something we hold so dear...
It's smells like...... like......
NASI LEMAK!!!

*runs away charging towards it*
*roar*

Yes, I'm still waiting for dearest Lynn Lynn to help refurnish my blog as I am a self-confess Idiot when it comes to technology....
So thanks ya, Lynn!!

I really don't know what to type.... Gone are the days where my fingers would just miraculously move by itself.

Okay, here goes *inhales*

A huge thank you to all my buddies for setting up a junk-food ala birthday party for me in School. I know I gave a reaction close to nothing... haha, but really I appreciate it.
The ironic part was,
THE BIRTHDAY GIRL DOES NOT EAT JUNK FOOD... =.=
So I ended up eating lots of sandwiches, which was the only healthy food found there. Anyhow, we manage to finish everything.... piggies!!!

Owh yea... Beatrice send me a fairly encouraging text a few days back.
phil 4:6 - do not worry about anything, but pray about everything.
It's great having leaders like them... haha, very encouraging, not to mention the amount of $$ they spend sending texts to us almost every night.

*le sigh*
I ate 3 JCo donuts just now... I feel bad.

On to a more serious note....

I really don't know what to say to you,
I know we last talk ages ago...
but sometimes,
Things not as bad as it seem,
You're just playing tricks on yourself.
So instead of rambling bout how lonely you are,
Why not start off from where you left ??!!

YES.

Tomorrow church will be having YES...
So do Pray that everything goes smoothly.
And that it'll be done the way GOD plans it to be...

Yo peeps....

Yo people....
The was dead blogger is back!!!

Okayzz....
let me explain my absence, it's simple coz.....coz.....coz....
I NO MOOD TO BLOG xp
not to mention I was pretty busy with all my commitments.

Updates....
1. I am now a FREE BIRD!!!!! * no more the treasurer-slash-along*
2. Life's been a roller coaster ride.... with a tad of cotton candy added to it.
3. Yes, I am still single and unavailable *smiles*
4. I've changed.... for better or worse?? *me thinks the latter* *get whaks*
5. Spm is coming in bout less that 6 months *but i still dc*
6. I juz realise I need to get good results like today... reason censored *grins*
7. Got to spend quality with some friends... *muffin any1?*
8. Got to know lots of new friends....lost alot more *le sigh*
9. homework undone dated back to April 2009.... *smack heads*
10. I KENA NS....... T.T

Anyone who called or claims to be my friend knows that I can hardly stand under the hot sun for 1 hour and not faint....

To add on, the only camp I went was for 4 days 3 night, and guess what? WHAT?!
1st day I fainted,
2nd day I fell down
3rd n 4th day, I was semi paralysed...

HOW TO GO FOR NS?!

sheesh... nyways, me have plans on how to TRY to skip NS....
haha, pray that it works!!!!
But then again, me thinks no need to try also,
body already very weak, plus lots of sickness plus fainting spells...
Me thinks I'm gonna get kick out anyway....
PRAY FOR ME!!!! ONEGAISHIMASU!!!!

Whatever la, let God's will be done...
but I'm still gonna try hard to not go...
We'll see what happens
Que Sera sera, whatever will be will be...

nyways, I do realise that people that I used to hang out with isn't what they seem to be... Maybe because I changed, maybe because thay changed. Oh well. I accepted the fact that people come and goes like the wind anyway.

And I do get to be a bad-ass once in a while, not to mention I was born rebellious....
really, just leave me alone.
When I come into terms with myself, i turn back to be angelic... for now........... =.=
So sick and tired of being goody-goody....

Oh yea, If ya don't like reading what I blog, go ahead and press the red cross on the far right of the window.... It's my ranting ground, so read it or close it, either way it doesn't bother me much. =.=

here's a blog which was intro by my darling,
http://clairvopes.blogspot.com/
* Really funny and Random* *giggles*

Chiaos for now,
Oh yea, do pray for me. There's tons of issues i have to straighten out before I go bonkes @@

Don't speak

you know what, don't bother asking me bout my long absence.
I know I promise pictures, But I just somehow don't feel like posting it..

Seriously, What good is it
by acting happy when ur not?
trying to be nice when ur really not bothered?

Somehow we all put up the stupid smile just for the sake of it,
Don't we??
Oh well, we're living in a superficial world after all...

Sometimes, we just have to let our emotions show,
no point smiling while holding back tears,
what difference does it make?

Shout when you need to,
Scream, don't bolt it all inside....
Act silly (in a good way), You'll only live once....

If emotions doesn't show,
somehow you'll end up being stone hard.

Resolution(s):
Say I'm pissed when I'm
Stop being so nice, coz I'm not...
Screw up sometimes, no point being perfect
Show some emotions when I need to,
Or at least try identifying....
Oh Gawd... why am I sooo hardened??

Dedication To Aiku Maikawa...

Zomg!!!
Aiku Maikawa graduated from Popteen...
Omg... she's Like my favourite model....
I doubt I'll even buy Popteen since she's no longer featured in it.
*sigh*
I really did look up to her...

Yes Claudia... she's the girl I told you about...

Aiku...

努力!!!

Memes again...

Tagged by Erica...

001. Real Name: Ginny Choong Siew Yen
002. Nickname(s): Gin, sandbunny, riko, ginny gabini, piggy....
003. Age: 17 years old
004. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary:SJK (c) Bt 9
007. Middle School:SMK Perimbun
008. High School: Refer q 007
009. College School: -
010. Hair colour: Black
011. Long or Short: Semi Long
012. Loud or Quiet: A mixture of both
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health Freak: duh!
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink waterXD
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Adam Lambert!!! XD
018. Eat or Drink: Drink
019. Piercings: 2
020. Tattoos: nil
021. Social or Anti-Social: Both..
022. First Piercing: 12 yrs old
023. First Relationship: haha?? kindergaden.... kids!
024. First Best Friend: Er...
025. First Award: Some prize
026. First Kiss: ........
027. First Pet: Doggy
028. First Big Vacation: Hong Kong
029. First Love at first sight: More like attraction
030. First Big Birthday: 1 yrs old

Currently

049. Eating: Nothing.
050. Drink: Green tea
051. Excitement Level: 30%
052. I'm about to: blog, bath and sleep
053. Listening to: untouched- the veronicas
054. Plan for today: Sleep
055. Waiting for: Time to pass
056. Energy Level: partially dead
057. Thinking of someone: Yup
058.Want kids?: lolx.... maybe
059. Want to get married?: Time will tell.... not now!
060. Careers in mind?: *Don't Laugh* fashion designer, stylist, Singer, proffesional dancer

Which is better in the boy/girl you like

068. Lips or Eyes?: When you look me in the eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Both
070. Shorter or Taller?: Taller
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Hopelessly romantic
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: arms
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Both
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: neither

Have you ever

080. Lost glasses or contacts: glasses
081. Ran away from home: yea
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: against?
083. Killed somebody: I murder a frog that day
084. Broken someone's heart: i guess
085. Been arrested: by the fashion police??
087. Cried when someone died: nope

Do you believe in

089. Yourself: Not really
090. Miracles: Yea
091. Love at first sight: nope
092. Heaven: heaven is so real XD
093. Santa Claus: ...... *swt drop*
094. Tooth Fairy: ...... *swt drop*
095. Kiss in the first date: yea

Truthfully

097. Is there someone you would want to be with right now?: Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: Not really
099. Do you believe in God? Obviously
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people:

I tag
Chee Ming
Feli
Tk
Hema
Hj kor

Memes

Yes yes... I'm back..
I'm a lil late on this... okay maybe its long overdue..
I'm Tagging.... er.... whoever la...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY:
Leavin - Jesse Mccartney *haha?*

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Just so you know- Jesse Mccartney * just the way u know me*

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Gravity - Sara Bareilles *what does tat mean?*

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Pon De Replay - Rihanna *partying*

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Don't forget - Demi Lovato *forget what?*


WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Ever ever after- Carrie underwood *prince charming? mana kau?*

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Killer- JJ lin *Yea, I kill them with blurness*

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I should be so lucky -Mihimaru GT

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Prisoner of love- Utada Hikaru *u have me baby*

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
The potential breakup song - Aly & Aj *Like they say, 4 a crowd*


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Babyboy-Beyonce *wink wink*


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
With Love- Hilary Duff

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
So small- carrie underwood * I never wanna Grow up*

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Temperature- Sean Paul *El nin yo*

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Baby it's you- Jojo *wooohooo*


WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Right where you want me -Jesse mccartney *crap*


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Ayo Technology- 50 cent *haha? so not true*

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR??
Because of you- Kelly Clarkson *nonsense*

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Big Girls Don't Cry- Fergie *I nvr cry*

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Bye BYe- Mariah Carey

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Clothes off- Gym Class Heroes *opss... shoot*


WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Come to me- P.diddy & Nicole

Maybe I'm a tad too naive,
As they say, I have my head stuck in the clouds...
But seriously,
I find no point in being logical now...
Coz to know the truth is to bleed more...
To sink deeper....

after searching with tears for so long,
I'm back in square 1....

Yet it somehow doesn't hurt no more,
maybe I'm so confused that I'm immune to the pain.
Like the way it is with me and panadol...

I guess nothing really matter anymore,
No matter what, it stills ends with the box....

I wish I could say I'm not Okay...
but being "pain-proof" makes it all the more confusing.
Coz I really don't know what to feel now,
except this...

OMG!!! I really have to stop taking painkillers!!!!
But I have cronic migrain which would kill me ....
How now?~!

updates...

A bunch of monkeys came over to my house for Cny yesterday...
and we had fun... well maybe towards the end I was abit sleepy, but I guess it's good...
We went to the playground near my house and end up caught in the rain... becoz apparently, Feli, Hem and Gurv was obsess with the slide...

Lol, then they proceed to my room... mind you... I had to change my bedsheets right after they left coz some people left oranges seeds on it... hehe, but I still love you!!! And Gurv being herself thought that the smarties packet was something else... *ahem* *wink* *wink*
Oh yea, and notty Hema... strike jackpot!!! *shh..*

Okay, okay... I know it dosent make sense.... but I'm not really in a mood to blog about stuff like this, all in all we had fun....

Oh yea, went to Midvalley today... and
and...
and....
some Idiot was stalking me.... AGAIN..
all the way from The gardens to Midvalley megamall!!!! Like seriously wth... I see him on the escalators, outside clothes store.... I go up 1 level, he follow...
Poor Cullen, Imagine what he goes thru everyday in school...
Anyway, after the stalker realise I know of his presence, he left...

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Do not read!!!
It will not make sense to any of you...
Plainly the authors thoughts...
no, I'm not emo...
just thoughts....
I think I'm actually feeling very good....
Just thoughts... For me and God...

Empty,
real emptyness....
feelings couldn't be sense anymore....
Dreams?
What dreams??
When taking another step might be fatal...
Forever stuck in this manner....
forever?? Time dosen't stop, but what if you've stopped.
Stuck in between....
Looking back is tragic...
Yet to come is bleak...
Now, is a tread...
Waiting to be snapped.

But maybe snapping wouldn't be that bad....
Things need to be resolved anyway...
For better or for worse...
Cheers!!!

But I prefer hanging on....
maybe? What for? For what?
Only God knows...

There's really alot that need to be done instead of blogging here... Oh well...

So, there's this form 6 guy in my school who resemble Edward Cullen from twilight. To be exact, he looks like a carbon copy of Robert Pattison... maybe an asian version. So so, what do we bunch of Alpharian girls do??

We stalk him!!!
To be exact those who do so would be me, Brigg, Hema, Lynn, Pavi and Vanessa...
Poor guy, he's probably so afraid of us already.... yet we stalk his every movement...XD

Oh yea, what happen today was.....
After school ended, we waited for Cullenist (as we call him) to leave his class. As we missed him at the stairs we had to chase him all the way to the jalan raya... Like seriously, we were running after him while shouting his name.... Finally we caught up with him in the middle of the road and Hema approach him...

Hema: Zhen Fen, did u realise we were stalking you?
Cullenist: *looks blur* *didnt understand*
Hema: did you realise we've been following you?
Cullenist: So?? * looks blur n troubled*
Hema: Yaya, did you realise you look like edward cullen?
Cullenist: You want my phone number??
All together: Nono!!
Hema: *shows edward Pic in Brigg's Phone...
Cullenist: *smiles* owhh... *walk off*

Like Lol... do you want my phone number?? Kawaii betul... haha.

Yea, we went for badminton practice instead of cross-country run becoz we thought he would be there. *do not kill me kah hoe* Turns out he wasn't there so we disbanded and went back for cross-country...

And Lynn lost her bag... poor thing, I hope she finds it back.

No, I do not like cullenist, and he's not that cute... he just looks like edward. The only reason why we're stalking him is coz...coz... it's fun! Since the poor guy is sooo afraid of us.... haha!!

Happy Bufday to my darling Boon Jun!!
I bet ur gonna kill me for calling u darling....
and for thinking that ur bufday is tomorrow...

Owhh, and my head's bleeding... shoot!! I need to see a specialist!! But I can't coz its Cny.
Pray for me that it's nothing life-treatening....

Mood: extremely stress out and worried with all the works... I'll probably die from worrying so much.... *sigh**sigh*

I'm not worried, I wonder why...

As most of you guys already know... I'm always stress out and panicky over the smallest matter. Actually I only panic when the problem is small... I wonder why... Must be the madness in my brain.

Hmm... as most of you guys already know, there's a growth behind of my head... So after much procrastinating, I finally moved my lazy butt and went see a doctor...

Results?!
Doc: I can't be sure what it is, but I'll recommend a skin specialist to you.
Gin: Owh... okayzz
Doc: Since you're having exam this year, I advice you to see the specialist ASAP.
Gin: haha?? *what does this have to do with SPM??*
Doc: I think a minor surgery would get rid of it, no worries...
Gin: *smiles*

I do wonder, what does this growth have to do with SPM?? It's not like it's gonna suck out all my add maths formula or bio terms from my brain... right?? RIGHT!!

Oh yea, I'm not even a lil bit worried over this unknown thing on my head... I'm actually more worried if my shopping plans will come true on Sat. No wonder ppl say I have a birdbrain... =.=
Anyway, I'll put everything in his hands, so i'll leave it to him to decide whether to make it dangerous or not...

At the mean time, I'll go back to playing games...

We should all be rather grateful...
As I'm typing right now, war is indeed happening in the other side of the world... All is not well there as we, continue to mourn about our uneatable cookie coz too little chocolate chips is in it... Doesn't this just make us, really ignorant and insignificant...

Instead of being grateful while trying to help others ,we, continue complaining bout how bad the day is... Hello? we are not the ones being blowed up... so what's there to really complain about??!!

Let's all be grateful and remember in prayer those in need.... frankly, I'm not bother in who's right or wrong... or rather if there's any meaning in all of this cruelty... But all I know is innocent life of those civilians shouldn't be treated like this...

So Riko, for once... STOP MOURNING BOUT SCHOOL...
*shake heads*

Senior Year..

You know what??

1. I'm 2 days late instead of 1 in posting this... why am I always late?
2. I don't know why I am posting this...

Anyway, school started about 2 days ago, and I'm right now a senior in high school, which also spells 365 days left to burn my books, rip apart my school uniform and completely wiping out scientific and mathematical terms from my pea-sized brain.. Phew...!

Gosh.... how am I gonna survive 10 more months of school???!!! It's only the 2nd day of the term and I'm moarning soooo much that I feel ears and mind errupting and blowing up into pieces... yes, I do have an issue with going to school since last year was extremely miserable and sickening... I bet the term will indeed continue on this year...

haha, the counselling teachers in school said that I need to be Kaji-ed. For me and Vanessa ran to the councelling room to ask if there's any scholarships left for Music and Arts college... Man, the shock in their eyes when they know we're from 5 Alfa... comical XD

oh, the look of all the subjects we have to study is giving me a sick feeling....

Omg omg... I hate school sooooooo freaking darn much.... poor Claudia... haha, I torture her life merajuking bout school....

Reasons why I hate school....

1. Oh yea, St John's a pain in the *ahem*... so much that I wanna change school. It's stupid to hate it soo freaking much
   
2. I generally DO NOT follow rules...
   
3. All science and Maths subjects treatens to blow my head off...
4. Teachers are a pain.... thx u Pn ***** you suck...

Resolutions....

1. I shall finish all my homework
2. I shall not sleep in class
3. I shall follows all the rules...
4. I shall not skip any calsses..
5. I shall kiss my add maths book and st john accounts every night...

PLEASE... STRICTLY FOR LAUGHS... DO NOT IN ANY MANNER TAKE ME SERIOUSLY..
I already fall dead in class this morning, and i am right now complaining about cocuriculum...