Changes....

After some time, do you realise your not the same person as before??!!
That you've changed, yet did not realise it..... until you ponder upon it unexpectedly...
It just hit me that I'm no longer the same person I was before.
That I am not the same person when it was
10 years ago...
5 years ago...
3 years ago...
6 month ago...

You know what, ?

I'm no longer that innocent lil girl
I'm no longer *that* rebellious *my parents should worship God*
I'm no longer that sweet.... or nice...
Or kind...
I'm no longer that carefree... I struggle to keep sane
i'm effing stressed out
I'm no longer willing to sacrifice coz your not worth my time
I'm no longer in love with you, you and you... *points randomly*
I'm not willing to study like i did before

I'm no longer living my life as before and I'm trying desperately to fit in to this new lifestyle...
and I'm struggling big time...
I want things to go back to when it was just uncomplicated... normal ...
I want my life back !!! But it'll never come back....

lalala.... I guess I'll just have to try to live my new life...


ps:// I have a feeling that something good will INDEED happen soon...
neh, neh, neh... tomorrow practice at 8 am... Nooooooo!!!!!!!! y so early 1...