No matter how hard she tries to live in denial, It just wasn't enough to drown out all her pain... Her instincts already know it... She feels it screaming in her ears, yet she wants to ignore it, to continue on like nothing really matters. Just one more day, one more day.... That's what she tells herself to continue breathing.

She wants to continue living in lala-world, for it's the only place where she could feel her heartbeat, the only place she could forget everything... She knows this cannot continue for long, soon she'll have to return to planet earth, to deal with unfinished things, unspoken words, a broken heart...

It really is a double edge sword, no matter which she chooses she's doomed to get hurt. Lala-land drowns out everything therefore sanity is fast losing.... yet to face reality would further crush her long-gone heart...

She knows the latter have to be choosed... yet she isn't quite ready to face it all...Just one more day... maybe then she would find the light at the end of the tunnel... Wishful thinking.

Hah...

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I seriously need to drag my feet and start doing more quiet time with God...