What if ur not so sure if its really what you want any longer...
What if...you can't choose? Coz neither way its like jumping from a pan into the sea?!
After ignoring the fact, I finally acknowledge that time is running out...Every minute here,is a minute closer to the deadline... I wish I didn't have so much of time...No, I wish I don't have a choice, coz when I do, I fear doing what I want the most.
Now I'm not sure if its really what I want anymore.Neither way, I know I have to decide immediately,for I cannot spare even a minute more.
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Staring at the screen dumbs trucked...Acknowledging the beauty inside the idiot box. Such breath-taking beauty... Such masterpiece. By the time you gain consciousness, A sharp pain pierce thru where it feels the most,Your Heart.By then you realised silent tears had already rolled down your pinkish cheek...A weird feeling could be felt in your stomach... Coz as much as your taken away by the beauty,You realised its something you longed to do but have not done... Which brings me back again,What on earth am I doing ?!
After a significant period of time, trying to differentiate what you really want and what you had once wanted becomes a blur picture... Or maybe it's because all of it plays a huge role in your life... Torned between two loves is equally complicated, It's not until you completely lay it all down and study it in detail that you might maybe have a glimpse of hope of getting the answer...
Yet, the missing piece is crucial if the puzzle wants to be completed into a fine piece of art.Fitting another piece in it wouldn't be the same... It has to be that very piece that is custom made to fit in its place...No replacement shall ever fit in perfectly.
Therefore....
I shall leave it to God to find that very piece of puzzle for me...
And I need him to bless me with high metabolism rate, for I just pigged out during dinner...
*tick tock, tick tock, tick tock....*
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