Post Exam Period..

Its a wrap for school period this year, which means there's a lot of time for me to sit at home and rot... Isn't this ironic? Pre and during exams period I was dying and hoping to have a day off doing nothing except lazing around like a dead dog spacing out....now, I have not a single clue on what to do coz I have plenty of time in my hand with no plan on what to do... *get kick by SPM students* *runs away!!*

With free time...I tend to think, and that's not a nice thing....

Disappointment... its the relationship I have with you. We are equally disappointed with each other... are we not? Hurtful words and criticism are constantly hurled at each other like a fury fireball... ready to struck down anyone in sight...to inflict the deepest wounds towards the other... Its that not what we're doing unconsciously? We have alot in common, i guess its the reason why we can't see eye to eye at times.... We love each other yet am so readily to cause the other pain...without knowing so... If I disappointed you, ur partly to be blamed for reasons best left unfold and untold.

Why not just leave all this behind...and start anew?
Isn't it what we both want... the better for each other?

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Have you ever love doing something that you rely on it to keep living? To keep ur sanity and to continue to move on when all else fails? A rush of guilt runs through my veins.... coz sadly, I have not been able to make that priority God (yet). I swear that I'm trying hard to... but lets leave that topic till I really am able to do it. Now lets get headed for some more earthly things..

I still swear that God will always remain my no. 1 priority in life... If he ask me to give leave and go, I would... no doubt

But coming back... there's something earthly that i cherish as well... Can you believe that I cried 3 days straight when I wasn't able to go for the competition? like seriously...Fall asleep crying, woke up crying, and cried whenever I had time (wtf) I know I sound insane... haha I'm mad...but that was 3 yrs ago. If ur wondering why I'm so moody this 2 days? It does have something to do with it... If you know me well, You know what I'm talikng about...